Tuesday of the Fifth Week of Lent

Today's Reading: Hebrews 9:11-15

Daily Lectionary: Exodus 2:23-3:22; Mark 14:53-72

"How much more will the Blood of Christ who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself to God, purify our conscience from dead works to serve the living God." (Hebrews 9:14)

In the Name + of Jesus. Amen. I convince myself it's going to be okay. I tell myself it's not that bad or not as bad as I think. I lie to myself. It's not a sin at all, or not a sin if I got away with it. I bury it and deal with it later. I just try not think about it.

But when the lights go off and I am alone in my bed, I know better. It eats at my insides. If only I hadn't done that sin. I was so stupid. Why do I keep doing it? What am I thinking? Don't I love Jesus? I am just so awful. People got to hell for what I've done. They burn forever and ever. Other people do my sins, and I wince because I know that the only difference between them and me is that the they were lucky to be caught and so are freed from that particular sin. I try not to condemn them, but sometimes I do it just to cover my own filth.

It's not one commandment either, it's all of them--every last one. I've broken them all. I'm guilty...so guilty. Lord, save me!

People have been trying to find a clean conscience since Adam covered his sin with a fig leaf. You can't be different from me. You have the same thoughts tormenting you. Give them up today.

Jesus. He's the only clean conscience before God. In Him, your sins are forgiven. In Him, you have peace with God. In Him, in His mercy, in His Cross, in His resurrection, you have holiness that won't ever go away.

The Gospel isn't a crutch so that I can sleep at night! No, Jesus' blood shed on the Cross washes my conscience with clean baptismal water. My pastor's Absolution dissolves my guilt away. Jesus' promises in the Word cleanse my soul. His Body and Blood really do give me the Supper of the forgiveness of my sins.

And when you have repented and been forgiven by God, and the Law still tries to torment you with its accusations, say this to it: "Shut up, Law! You've already done your work on me! You drove me to Jesus. I'm going to ignore your condemnation now so that my conscience can rest trusting that Jesus really has forgiven and saved me!"

The only clean conscience is a Blood-red conscience. The only peace is found in the suffering and death of Jesus. The only righteousness is by faith in Him. Your sins are forgiven. Be at peace tonight. In the Name + of Jesus. Amen.

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